Here's the deal. I haven't written here in awhile. Sorry for that. The multitude of factors in my life came together as a singular force that precluded writing. In the interest of honesty and full disclosure, I allowed them to preclude me from writing. This brings me to the subject of this entry.
There is gap between knowing a thing and being able live a thing fully and completely. For example, I know that my day today is the direct result of poor choices last night. The angst and anxiety of the week prevented me from getting enough sleep. The week's trouble is the direct result of me not taking care of myself. It is the result of me not prioritizing my health and not managing my diabetes.
So where I am right no is a direct result of my own personal choices. The lesson lies in that I have to own that. In my head, I intellectually get that truth. The process gap I am experiencing comes in translating what I know into something I KNOW. The all caps version being a truth that I can make practical use of. The know, own, and life thing is what I am talking about wanting to take possession of for use in my life.
The ability to grasp and live life from the place that recognizes that the topography of now is the sum total of everything that came before it is what I am after. Being able to live knowing that poor health choices lead to wild mood swings and have a cost all their own is what I need right now. Being able to live from that place in a way that the knowledge makes changes in an actions and behaviors. I guess it boils down to knowledge that is actually in use.
On some level it is about the difference between potential and kinetic energy. Knowledge not in use is the equivalent of potential energy. The reverse being kinetic energy. I suppose there is a Biblical example that can be inserted here related to knowing and doing.
I need to put this principle to work. I need to live a conscious life that inhabits the knowledge, that puts it to work. A life that considers all the choices within the framework of does this advance where I want to be long term. Do I want to be the person that complains bitterly about things that didn't happen, or about the negative things that did happen, because I didn't work with the knowledge I had available.
I have heard this described as being judged by the dictates of one's conscience. It accurately describes the moment I am in now. Things need to change, I am the only one that can change them. My conscience is my own judge of my own life at a minimum.
Thus endeth the rant.
There is gap between knowing a thing and being able live a thing fully and completely. For example, I know that my day today is the direct result of poor choices last night. The angst and anxiety of the week prevented me from getting enough sleep. The week's trouble is the direct result of me not taking care of myself. It is the result of me not prioritizing my health and not managing my diabetes.
So where I am right no is a direct result of my own personal choices. The lesson lies in that I have to own that. In my head, I intellectually get that truth. The process gap I am experiencing comes in translating what I know into something I KNOW. The all caps version being a truth that I can make practical use of. The know, own, and life thing is what I am talking about wanting to take possession of for use in my life.
The ability to grasp and live life from the place that recognizes that the topography of now is the sum total of everything that came before it is what I am after. Being able to live knowing that poor health choices lead to wild mood swings and have a cost all their own is what I need right now. Being able to live from that place in a way that the knowledge makes changes in an actions and behaviors. I guess it boils down to knowledge that is actually in use.
On some level it is about the difference between potential and kinetic energy. Knowledge not in use is the equivalent of potential energy. The reverse being kinetic energy. I suppose there is a Biblical example that can be inserted here related to knowing and doing.
I need to put this principle to work. I need to live a conscious life that inhabits the knowledge, that puts it to work. A life that considers all the choices within the framework of does this advance where I want to be long term. Do I want to be the person that complains bitterly about things that didn't happen, or about the negative things that did happen, because I didn't work with the knowledge I had available.
I have heard this described as being judged by the dictates of one's conscience. It accurately describes the moment I am in now. Things need to change, I am the only one that can change them. My conscience is my own judge of my own life at a minimum.
Thus endeth the rant.
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